The night before a book release is a bit like many of the other exciting things we go through in life. First day of school...first day at a new job. What if people don’t like me? What if I don’t fit in?
A second book is different to the first one. People give you leniency in primary school, because you’re young and inexperienced. You need help to get where you’re going, and people readily provide it. The second book is a little scarier. It’s a bit like starting high school, or changing schools. You’ve done it once, so you should be fine to do it again. People step back and let you have a little more freedom, a little more leeway. But you still need them, because the nerves are still there. They’re still like gigantic butterflies trying to fly out of your stomach.
Writing a book is like pouring a little of your soul into the pages that others pick up and read. So much work goes into one little thing, it can sometimes be easy to overlook the effort, or play it down. I’m the worst culprit for it, ironically. There’s so much vulnerability already, with your soul out there, dancing around among your colleagues, friends and family that you don’t want to open yourself up to potential rejection. So when people congratulate you on your achievement, it’s easier to play it down, to be cool. Then there’s less chance they’ll think you’re conceited, or full of yourself. It will be safer.
But you know what? Life is too short not to celebrate our achievements. The goals we reach and the levels of life that we unlock. Writing is a dream I’ve always had, I just didn’t know if I had the guts to do it. Well now, here we are. For better or worse, Book Two launches tomorrow, and I really hope it’s as good as the first. I hope I make someone smile, or laugh. I hope I make them love my characters, and to wish for the best for them. I hope the messages I’ve tried to embed in the plot line give someone hope that they’re on the right track, doing the right thing.
So, on the eve of its launch, here’s to Book Two: Scourge of Scotland. There goes another little piece of my heart ❤️